I can't believe that it has been over two years since I started this blog. And I also can't believe that I only ever did two posts. I guess back then I must have pushed it to the back of my mind (probably out of worry) and then forgot about it. But a few months ago the link appeared in my Facebook memories and I was reminded about my "lightbulb moment".
I didn't actually think that I'd start writing this again... I mean, why should I? I don't have anything very interesting or smart to say... It's certainly not going to be well written or have perfect grammar... I don't even think anyone will bother to read it... And I'm pretty sure that most people will think I'm stupid if I start blogging about myself and my ridiculous thoughts.
But the feeling to start it up again didn't leave me. Nor did the reason of why I started this blog in the first place. I started it because I wanted to make my next thousand days count. I wanted to share my thoughts, laughs and struggles, so that even if it helped just one other person in recognising that they're not alone, then that is awesome. I would have succeeded. So here I am.
Yesterday I sat down and re-read my first post "The lightbulb moment" and thought WOW... Some things have definitely changed over the past couple of years... And some have not. What was clear to me though, is that I need to start my one thousand days all over again. But this time it feels a little different...
Last time I was looking at the one thousand days as an immediate big picture. I felt like I was going to plow strongly through them, and show those thousand days who was boss!
This time I feel that I need to break the thousand days into small chunks. Anything more than that feels a bit overwhelming. I want to take the days slower, and really learn about myself. I want to know how I actually feel about things, how I can change my reactions to things. and how I can become a better person in making my life count. I don't want, or need, a place for fear, anxiety and worry in my life.
It was while I was sitting down to consider what I'd like to write in this post, and for future posts, that I began to think about what I would like to see change within myself.
Look, I actually have a really great life, and I'm in no way not acknowledging that. I have a wonderful husband who is the total love of my life, and I also have the most magnificent daughter (more on that another time)... But there were quite a few things I would like to see change in my life. I guess they're more things on the inside, rather than the outside (although in saying that, losing a few million kg's wouldn't go astray! ;-) )... but once I started to list them all, I began to feel a little overwhelmed.
As much as I'd like to, I do realise that I'm not able to change everything immediately. Some of the things that I would like to see change are way beyond my control, especially things that involve the people that I love. And that's when these words popped into my head... "If you can't change it all, then change what you can. Change your part in it. Change your heart in it". HELLOOO, lightening bolt to my heart! How true are those words!! Basically these words are telling me that I have the ability to change what I can. It is up to ME to change MY part in things. And for what I can't change, I can certainly change my heart towards it. I know it's not rocket science, but this was big for me. I'll probably do another blog post on it at some stage, so hold onto your rocket science seats :P
I guess to sum this post up, I would say:...
Firstly, I'm back. And I'm blogging. :-)
Secondly, if you're joining me for the next thousand days, then AWESOME. If looking at one thousand days is daunting, then break it down into small chunks like I'm going to.
And lastly, don't feel like you have to change everything at once. Lord knows I can't! Baby steps, mate.
Tonight I'm going to have a think about what little change I can start making tomorrow (today's was actually getting the guts to do this post). I'm sure that with all the small changes I make, whether it be in my thought patterns, to the way I speak negatively about myself, to what I put in my mouth to eat... they will all add up, over time, and make a BIG change in my world. And that is all part of my one thousand days!
Have a great night!
xx
I didn't actually think that I'd start writing this again... I mean, why should I? I don't have anything very interesting or smart to say... It's certainly not going to be well written or have perfect grammar... I don't even think anyone will bother to read it... And I'm pretty sure that most people will think I'm stupid if I start blogging about myself and my ridiculous thoughts.
But the feeling to start it up again didn't leave me. Nor did the reason of why I started this blog in the first place. I started it because I wanted to make my next thousand days count. I wanted to share my thoughts, laughs and struggles, so that even if it helped just one other person in recognising that they're not alone, then that is awesome. I would have succeeded. So here I am.
Yesterday I sat down and re-read my first post "The lightbulb moment" and thought WOW... Some things have definitely changed over the past couple of years... And some have not. What was clear to me though, is that I need to start my one thousand days all over again. But this time it feels a little different...
Last time I was looking at the one thousand days as an immediate big picture. I felt like I was going to plow strongly through them, and show those thousand days who was boss!
This time I feel that I need to break the thousand days into small chunks. Anything more than that feels a bit overwhelming. I want to take the days slower, and really learn about myself. I want to know how I actually feel about things, how I can change my reactions to things. and how I can become a better person in making my life count. I don't want, or need, a place for fear, anxiety and worry in my life.
It was while I was sitting down to consider what I'd like to write in this post, and for future posts, that I began to think about what I would like to see change within myself.
Look, I actually have a really great life, and I'm in no way not acknowledging that. I have a wonderful husband who is the total love of my life, and I also have the most magnificent daughter (more on that another time)... But there were quite a few things I would like to see change in my life. I guess they're more things on the inside, rather than the outside (although in saying that, losing a few million kg's wouldn't go astray! ;-) )... but once I started to list them all, I began to feel a little overwhelmed.
As much as I'd like to, I do realise that I'm not able to change everything immediately. Some of the things that I would like to see change are way beyond my control, especially things that involve the people that I love. And that's when these words popped into my head... "If you can't change it all, then change what you can. Change your part in it. Change your heart in it". HELLOOO, lightening bolt to my heart! How true are those words!! Basically these words are telling me that I have the ability to change what I can. It is up to ME to change MY part in things. And for what I can't change, I can certainly change my heart towards it. I know it's not rocket science, but this was big for me. I'll probably do another blog post on it at some stage, so hold onto your rocket science seats :P
I guess to sum this post up, I would say:...
Firstly, I'm back. And I'm blogging. :-)
Secondly, if you're joining me for the next thousand days, then AWESOME. If looking at one thousand days is daunting, then break it down into small chunks like I'm going to.
And lastly, don't feel like you have to change everything at once. Lord knows I can't! Baby steps, mate.
Tonight I'm going to have a think about what little change I can start making tomorrow (today's was actually getting the guts to do this post). I'm sure that with all the small changes I make, whether it be in my thought patterns, to the way I speak negatively about myself, to what I put in my mouth to eat... they will all add up, over time, and make a BIG change in my world. And that is all part of my one thousand days!
Have a great night!
xx